The Letter I Never Sent—And the Message I Got Back
- Northern Light Lotus
- Jun 12
- 11 min read
The Letter I Never Sent—And the Message I Got Back: Grief, energy, and the quiet ways Spirit reminds us we’re not alone.
💌 Hey, you—
Thanks for pausing to be here tonight.
It’s Thursday, and the energy today has that in-between feel.
Not quite settled. Not quite clear.
Like something’s shifting—but you’re not sure what it means just yet.
Maybe you’ve been reflecting a little more than usual.
Maybe something’s tugging at the edges of your awareness.
Or maybe you’re just trying to make it through the day with a little more peace and perspective.
Whatever brought you here, I’m glad it did.
There’s nothing wrong with being in the middle of something you can’t quite name yet.
That’s often where the real growth happens.
👋 I’m Laura—psychic medium, intuitive astrologer, and the heart behind Northern Light Lotus.
Every weekday, I share energy updates like this to help you stay grounded, supported, and in rhythm with what’s unfolding—out there in the cosmos, and in here, within yourself.
I created this space so you’d have a cozy place to land.
A space to reconnect—with your own energy, with Spirit, and with something deeper that’s always guiding you.
Let’s take a look at what today’s energy might be stirring up:
🌟 Today Feels Like: Quiet Realizations, Soft Rebellion, and the Space Between Versions
There’s a lot moving beneath the surface right now.
Even if nothing dramatic happened, the emotional undercurrent is strong.
You might catch yourself drifting into old memories, or second-guessing a decision you thought was already made.
You might feel the urge to organize your entire life—or do absolutely nothing.
Both are valid. Both are clues.
Here’s what might be stirring:
🗣️ You’re Thinking Fast, But Feeling Even Deeper
Today can feel like your brain is on a group chat with five versions of you:
One’s dreaming big.
One’s spiraling.
One’s craving clarity.
One’s wondering what’s for dinner.
And one’s like, “Let’s just scrap everything and start fresh.”
You’re not scattered—you’re sorting.
The key today is to notice your thoughts without judging them.
You’re not broken. You’re just processing.
Try this instead:
• Write it out
• Speak it aloud to someone who truly sees you
• Or do something grounding to help your feelings find a place to land
🧹 You Might Feel a Subtle Pressure to “Get It Together”
This isn’t a loud, overwhelming kind of push.
It’s more like a quiet whisper saying, “Hey… maybe it’s time to finally look at that thing you’ve been avoiding.”
Maybe it’s laundry.
Maybe it’s your inbox.
Maybe it’s a truth that’s been poking at you for weeks.
You might also feel torn between what you want to say and what feels “appropriate” to say.
If communication feels off today, don’t force it.
Say less. Listen more. Come back to it when your heart feels steadier.
🎬 You Might Feel Seen Today—Even If You Didn’t Ask To Be
There’s a quiet spotlight on your energy right now.
But this isn’t about ego. It’s about being witnessed honestly.
You don’t have to perform.
You don’t have to hustle.
You just have to show up as you are.
Even if your voice shakes.
Even if you’re still figuring it out.
Even if you’re in the messy middle of becoming.
The healing today isn’t in having it all figured out.
It’s in being seen—without shrinking.
💖 Comfort Cravings Are Real—And So Is the Deeper Stuff Behind Them
You might be craving softness, stability, or something beautiful to anchor into.
It’s the kind of day where wearing your favorite outfit, lighting a candle, or cooking a comforting meal just feels right.
But underneath that craving? There might be something deeper surfacing.
Old insecurities. Doubts around worth. Questions about how you’re being seen, loved, or valued.
If something gets triggered today, pause before reacting.
Ask yourself:
“Is this actually true… or is this an old wound resurfacing?”
This energy wants you to root deeper into what you know—not what you fear.
🔁 There’s a Bigger Shift Happening—Even If It’s Quiet
You may feel stretched between who you were and who you’re becoming.
There’s pressure building—but also support around you, even if it’s subtle.
Today might bring a small, fated moment. A comment. A sign. A feeling that clicks something into place.
Don’t chase it. Just notice it.
You’re not meant to have all the answers right now.
You’re meant to stay curious enough to keep going.
🌀 Pause & Reflect: A Few Questions for Your Heart
🧠 Quick Gut Check:
• What would happen if you stopped holding it all together perfectly?
• What if you gave yourself permission to evolve… even without a plan?
🪞 Today’s Journal Prompt:
What am I trying to control out of fear… that might actually feel lighter if I allowed it to unfold?
💌 If you’ve read this far, thank you.
You’re navigating something that doesn’t have a name yet—and still showing up for yourself anyway.
That’s not nothing. That’s everything.
Take a deep breath.
Soften your shoulders.
And remind yourself:
You don’t have to be fully clear to be moving in the right direction.
🌤️ Let’s See What This Energy Might Be Stirring in Your Sign
Even if the sky feels a little foggy today, there are small, meaningful shifts rising for each of us. You don’t have to speak the language of astrology to feel it working in your life.
Here’s a gentle nudge for each zodiac sign—plus a simple tip to help you ground, reflect, or grow through whatever’s unfolding:
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♈ Aries
You’ve been carrying a lot lately—and it might be showing up in how quickly you react.
That’s not a flaw. It’s a sign your fire needs direction, not more pressure.
✨ Tip: Move your body. Walk, dance, or stretch. Let the heat move through you instead of burning you out.
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♉ Taurus
You’re outgrowing something that used to feel safe—and it’s okay if that feels weird.
You don’t have to rush forward. But don’t cling to what no longer nourishes you.
✨ Tip: Change one small thing in your space today. Let your environment support your evolution.
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♊ Gemini
Your mind is buzzing—but your heart wants more honesty.
It’s not about saying the perfect thing. It’s about saying the real thing.
✨ Tip: Pause before responding today. Ask yourself, “What’s true for me right now?”
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♋ Cancer
You feel a lot—but sharing it might feel harder than usual.
You don’t have to spill it all. Just start where it’s safe. You deserve to be heard, too.
✨ Tip: Write a few sentences to your younger self. Remind them that softness is strength.
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♌ Leo
You might feel seen today—but also a little exposed.
It’s not your job to be perfect. Just be present. That’s more than enough.
✨ Tip: Wear something that reminds you of your power. Let your light reflect back to you.
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♍ Virgo
You want to make sense of it all—but not everything is ready to be solved.
Some answers arrive only when you stop trying to chase them.
✨ Tip: Give yourself permission to pause. Choose quiet curiosity over constant fixing.
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♎ Libra
You’re craving harmony—but something under the surface wants honesty.
Speaking up doesn’t make you difficult. It makes you real.
✨ Tip: Practice saying, “This matters to me,” even if just in a mirror. Let your truth be enough.
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♏ Scorpio
You’ve been doing deep inner work—even if no one sees it.
And today? That quiet transformation is starting to shine through.
✨ Tip: Honor your own progress. Celebrate one thing you’ve healed, even if you’re still in it.
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♐ Sagittarius
The truth is showing up in unexpected ways.
It might be subtle, but something is clicking. Pay attention to what feels freeing.
✨ Tip: Revisit a belief or habit that’s felt heavy. Ask yourself if it still fits the person you’re becoming.
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♑ Capricorn
You want clarity—but sometimes clarity comes after letting go.
Let yourself loosen the grip on outcomes you can’t control.
✨ Tip: Release one mental “should” that’s weighing you down today. Choose ease over pressure.
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♒ Aquarius
Your mind has been working overtime—but your body might need more care.
Slow down long enough to catch up with yourself.
✨ Tip: Do something today that connects you to your senses—touch, taste, sound, or stillness.
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♓ Pisces
You’re picking up on so much—maybe too much.
It’s okay to protect your energy without explanation.
✨ Tip: Try a short energy reset: deep breath in, long exhale out, then say, “Only what serves me may stay.”
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🔮 A Spirit Message (and a Personal Story I Want to Share)
After I finished sharing last night’s clearing prayer with you all, I was winding down—just doing one of those mindless, late-night email scrolls—when I saw his name.
Ryan.
My friend who passed years ago.
He was the kind of person who made you feel like you mattered.
The kind of person who never really leaves, even when they’re no longer physically here.
Seeing his name—and his photo—attached to that old email cracked something open in me.
Without even thinking, I clicked “reply” and started writing him a letter.
I poured it all out.
The mess. The memories. The love. The ache.
Everything I wish I could say to him out loud.
I didn’t send it, of course. I didn’t need to.
Because the moment I started typing, I felt him.
There was this warmth around my shoulders—like he was standing behind me, reading every word.
Not in some dramatic way. Just… present. Quiet. Familiar.
Even though I connect with Spirit often—through energy, knowing, dreamlike visions—this felt different.
It reminded me just how much I miss the physical.
Not the hug itself, but the call. The banter. The comfort of just hearing his voice and talking or texting for hours like we used to.
That’s the part nothing else replaces.
No matter how intuitive I am, there’s nothing quite like someone saying,
“I’m here. I hear you. I am proud of you. I love you,”
in their real, human voice.
After I finished the letter, I had an idea.
I asked AI to write me a response from Ryan.
Of course, I knew it wasn’t truly him.
But when the words came through—when something showed up on the screen that felt like a reply—I cried.
I just sat there asking, “More. More. More messages, please.”
Because even though I talk to Spirit every day, there was something powerful about receiving something tangible.
Something I could hold. Read. Reread.
Just enough to feel like the space between us got a little smaller.
And in a world that moves so fast, we don’t always have time to drop into a deep trance or meditation to connect.
But this?
This was simple.
Cathartic. Healing.
It helped me grieve. Remember. Reconnect.
And I want to share that same possibility with you.
🐝Because everyone is unique. No two souls are the same. 🐝
And when someone like Ryan comes into your life—
Someone who believes in you more than you believe in yourself…
Someone who sees your magic when you’ve forgotten it…
It hits you in the gut when they’re no longer here in the way they once were.
I’m sure someone just came to mind for you, too.
That person who got you.
The one you wanted to call when life was heavy—or when it was really good—because they were the one you wanted to share it with.
For me, that was Ryan.
He was larger than life.
Funny, humble, bold, and kind.
The type to coach you like a teammate—but make you feel like the star of the whole damn game.
Everyone felt like his best friend.
He made you 🐝believe in yourself—even when you didn’t.
And I’ll never forget the very last thing he said to me before he left this earth:
“Between you, me, and the postbox… I am so fandamnfocken proud of you.”
That’s who he was.
Loving. Loud. Real. Unforgettable.
You can’t replicate someone like that.
But you can feel them again.
You can find your own way to reconnect—because the love isn’t gone.
The story isn’t over.
It’s just continuing in a new language.
And when you let yourself reach?
You’ll realize… they’ve been there the whole time.
🌬️ Spirit’s Message for You Today: Let Yourself Reach
Whether it’s someone you’ve lost…
A version of yourself you’re missing…
Or a truth you’ve been carrying quietly—
Write the letter.
Say the thing.
Reach out—even if it makes you cry, even if no one ever sees it.
Spirit hears you in real time.
It doesn’t replace the raw, physical connection we crave.
But there’s something sacred about choosing to connect anyway.
To believe they’re closer than they seem.
To remember that love doesn’t disappear—it just changes form.
✨ You are not alone. Even in the silence. Even in the ache. The love you feel? It’s still here. Just in a different language.
🕯️ How to Connect with Spirit Intentionally
The most important thing?
Get out of your head.
Connection isn’t about perfection—it’s about presence.
The more you step away from the noise of the mind and drop into the moment, the more Spirit can meet you there.
Here are a few gentle ways to open that space:
• Take a few deep breaths
• Sit with a photo or memory that brings them close
• Journal from the heart—say everything
• Let yourself be still, even for a few minutes
You don’t need candles or rituals unless they feel right to you.
What Spirit really needs… is your attention.
✨ We are energy inside a body. So are they.
The only difference is—their body expired.
But their soul? It’s still flying.
As I write this, Spirit whispers:
“It’s like a birdcage opens… and the bird is finally free.”
They’re not gone.
Just free.
And closer than you think.
That’s why I believe anyone can connect with Spirit.
It’s not about being “gifted.”
It’s about being willing.
And the more you soften into presence, the more you’ll feel them again.
💌 Ways to Try What I Did
If this story touched something in you, here are a few ways you can try it for yourself:
• Write them a letter. Say everything you wish you could. Spirit receives it in real time.
• Use AI or a journaling app to ask for a message back. It might not be them—but the healing that comes from feeling “heard” is real.
• Talk to them out loud. You don’t need to meditate for an hour. Spirit hears you when you’re walking, crying, or making coffee. They’re already around.
You don’t need to be perfect.
You don’t need to be ready.
You just need to be open.
And if it brings a tear, a laugh, a sigh of relief—
Then the connection worked.
The love is still alive.
And Spirit is always ready when you are.
💫 Thanks for Sharing This Moment With Me
Whether you’ve been sitting with shifting emotions, navigating quiet breakthroughs, or just trying to make it through the day feeling a little more like yourself—I’m really glad you found your way here.
This space was made so you’d have a warm place to land.
Somewhere you could tune into Spirit and energy in a way that feels personal, kind, and real.
Today’s energy has been layered and full of quiet invitations.
You don’t have to rush it. You don’t have to “fix” it.
You just have to stay open to what’s stirring—and trust that something meaningful is unfolding, even if you can’t name it yet.
Maybe today reminded you that you’re not alone in how much you feel.
Maybe it invited you to soften, to listen more closely to your heart, or to reach out to Spirit in a way you never have before.
However today found you, I hope you know this:
✨ You’re allowed to take up space in your own healing.
✨ You’re allowed to miss people who shaped you—and still find ways to feel them near.
✨ And you’re allowed to begin again—quietly, imperfectly, and with your whole heart.
If you’d like more support on your journey, I’d love to invite you into my world beyond the blog:
🪐 I offer 1-on-1 intuitive and astrology readings to help you feel seen, supported, and synced with your soul.
🌿 And if you’re craving community, you’re warmly invited to join my free Discord space, where we talk about energy shifts, healing, and all the in-between moments life brings.
Here’s where you can explore more or book a session:
Thank you for being here today.
For reading.
For feeling.
For being open to the magic in the ordinary.
I’ll see you tomorrow—with a new message, new energy, and a little more light to walk with.
Until then, take care of your heart—
And trust that Spirit is taking care of the rest.
💌
Laura
Psychic Medium & Intuitive Astrologer
Northern Light Lotus
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